WHAT ARE DREAMS? GIFTS OR CURSES?

“If being crazy means living life as if it really matters, then I don’t care if we are completely insane.” (April’s though about trying to make dreams come true). We have just one life to live and sometimes just one chance to take risks and maybe (just maybe) be happy. If you let it go, you can never find yourself again in the middle of this complicated web of sorrows called life. Forget to live for a while and when you open your eyes again and take a look around you will find out that life was gone, and possibilities don’t even exist anymore. What if nothing is possible? What if you were fated to fail? Would you accept destiny or would you have the strength to fight?

‘Revolutionary road’ was recorded this year (2009) and it’s a movie that brings the sensation that everything is possible, existence is beautiful, and then, after one or two scenes, you are sure that life is a lie, a dream, a bitter and dreary dream. In Brazil the movie’s name was translated into a different meaning, appropriated we must say, but in disaccording: “It was just a dream”.

In this movie we see Leonardo Dicaprio and Kate Winslet working together again. They, who are one of the most famous couple in cinema since they actuated in Titanic, are just brilliant in this contemporary tragedy called ‘life’. The story which is based in a namesake book (a best seller by David Yates) starts with a couple’s plans and dreams. They are beautiful, young, and full of hope: “There’s nothing in the world you couldn’t do or be!” Says Winslet’s character named April to her husband Frank, represented by Dicaprio. They get married, have two children, and move to a neighborhood called Revolutionary Road, there they live in a beautiful house and raise their children while all their neighbors envy them. Frank starts working in the same company his father used to work and April has to give up her biggest dream that was to be an actress, to become a housewife. Time keeps going relentless and they are always the same, they slowly die as flowers in a lengthened winter. Years after a happy marriage they realize that they are nothing but simple and ordinary people who can’t stand an ordinary life. They fight everyday and kill themselves with rude words and guilt. April wants a different life in which she can really feel alive and Frank believes that he wasn’t born to be just a forgotten employee, that’s when they decide to make a dream of theirs come true: they decide go to live in Paris. Frank is about to quit his job, and April Was finally going to do something by herself, but in the last moment they find out she is pregnant again and then Frank is invited to a promotion in the company. Once more they can’t go on although they want it more than anything in the world, another dream ends in a dry and melancholic deadlock. April starts hating her baby and Frank and their relationship gets an unsustainable level: a true love turns into a weighty hate. How can people let their lives go like this?

As the director (Winslet’s husband) says: “The dynamic between April and Frank was so powerful and so realistic and it felt like you were a fly on the wall listening to an intimate relationship disintegrate”. Watching a movie like this one help us think a little about life, about how small and weak we are in this infinite universe. You feel like in a prison from where you can’t escape because this prison is your own life! That’s human beings. You can’t point a finger cause there’s no good and bad guys, there are just guys. If you are not happy about your life go on and change it before it changes you.

JUST PHOTOGRAPHS… THEY’RE SO FAR AWAY... I WISH EVERYONE COULD CARE… BUT THEY DON’T…

From underneath the trees, we watch the sky
Confusing stars for satellites
I never dreamed that you'd be mine
But here we are, we're here tonight

Singing, amen, I ... I'm alive

If everyone cared and nobody cried
If everyone loved and nobody lied
If everyone shared and swallowed their pride
We'd see the day when nobody died

Im singin'amen
And in the air the fire flies
Our only light in paradise
We'll show the world they were wrong
And teach them all to sing along

Singing amen, I ... I'm alive

And as we lie beneath the star
We realize how small we are
If they could love like you and me
Imagine what the world could be…

If today was your last day, and tomorrow was too late, Could you say goodbye yesterday? Would live each moment like your last? Leave old pictures in the past? Would you call those friends you never see? Reminisce old memories? Would you forgive your enemies? If today was OUR last day… we should meet at least once again…

I really believe in dreams, you’re not the only one who knows that. Maybe I’m crazy but, if this is to be insane, I want to be crazy forever… I’ve been wrong, I’ve been down, but I’ve been here: You’re never gonna be alone if you don’t want to. They say that a hero could save us but I’m not gonna stand here and wait. How do you remind me? You may think I’m a mistake, but if is not me it’s gonna be somebody else. I was born to fight for all the wrong reasons and Iron bars can't hold my soul in. Maybe someday in somehow we’re going to make it all right but not right now. We can’t touch the stars, but it doesn’t mean they don’t exist… If you really want you can listen to God’s plan, just close your eyes for a while and breath hope. Come please, I’m calling, show me what is like to be the last one standing, and teach me wrong from right, and then I'll show you what I can be. Heaven's gates won't open up for me, with these broken wings I'm fallin'… just fallin’… but who said I have to fly to get the sky?
On my knees I'll ask you a last chance for one last dance 'Cause with you, I'd withstand even all the hell just to hold your hand…
“Are you coming? It can be our last day…”

In a hundred years if I can relive these days, I would change nothing.